Happy anniversary IT:
04/25/2009
No I am not drunk.
It’s been a full year with IT. Some symptoms have diminished, some have stayed on and some have gotten worse. I went for a long round of testing on Thursday afternoon and wasn’t expecting much improvement and the results showed what I was feeling. I am still sick. I have another appointment in the end of July. There will be some tweaking of medications, I have to add 3 drop 1 and keep doing what I can.
IT caused a whole lot of embarrassment for me on Wednesday: my new supervisor thought I was drunk. I got up from a chair in her office and couldn’t hold my balance. I asked her if I was swaying and she said yes. I let her know “I am not drunk” she said "I was wondering what was in your drink". I told her it was a medical issue and I would be happy to explain it to her some other time, but now was not appropriate. There were a number of other people walking by in the hallway. I wanted to cry: I was horrified that none of my supervisors, all of them, didn’t mention to her about IT.
I went over and explained to her later that day what I was dealing with. She was shocked, showed a bit of sympathy and was also surprised that the commander and the Lt. “didn’t know” about IT or how serious IT is. I told her I have kept my immediate supervisors informed, they were aware of the medical testing, the appointments and the search for answers and the medications I take.
My last day covering my old job ended up with a twist. My replacement wasn’t there and there is a rumor that she will be retiring shortly. With the city wide hiring freeze, my old unit is in a bind, if she leaves, the position can’t be replaced. They are scrambling to come up with a solution. Since I am “no longer qualified” for the job according to HR, I can’t take it back and truthfully, after the way I was treated, I don’t want to. I am looking forward to moving on and getting a fresh start with a new project.
I am off to a restorative yoga class this afternoon and then heading down to the local track for some racing fun tonight. I think it’s the perfect way to transition to my new job and my new opportunities.
